Full Disclosure: I considered NOT writing this blog…….
But that wasn’t the REAL reason I didn’t want to write this blog……
… I’m scared to write this because its the last one before I go back to work. Once I’m done with this – part of me has to shift .
I’m back on the morning show with Chris and Matt on Monday March 20th. If you’re wondering-that’s exactly 7 days from today. I know this because ever since February 20th – I’ve had a countdown in my head.
I am SO excited to get back into the swing of things,to listen to what’s going on in your lives, to fight with Matt and take Chris’s good fatherly advice. But IM. SO. SCARED.
I feel like a kid the night before they go back after summer holidays. I’m so nervous to be in that CISN chair again – will I still be quick on my toes? Will I be able to get Chris’s dad jokes? Will I be able to (insert any task here)?
Ever since Kennedy was born – Ive had a serious case of “Mom Brain” . I always thought this was fake until I started putting the clothes in the dryer and walking away without turning it on ; or swearing up and down I put something in the fridge only to find it sitting on the counter hours later. So I really fear what this good ol thing is going to do on the show at 5:30am haha
Everyone told me it would be so hard to go back to work -and I admit – its WAY harder than I anticipated! But just like all of you – I can do it too!
Kennedy is 4 months old today and in those short 4 months- I have learned a lot. I’ve learned to let go. When it comes to doing that laundry (that never gets dried haha) I don’t even sort it anymore. It just all goes in there.
I’ve also let go of apparently caring what I sound like in public. I used to be so self conscious of talking like a fool (you know-hardcore baby talk) to Kennedy and other babies. Not any more. Sometimes people look at me in the grocery store and I don’t even realize I’ve added a high pitch and a “y” (ie blankey) to every sentence. Hope I can reign that in.
The past month has also included lots of reading- just like the news- however my headlines are more like “If I Were a Penguin” & “Sophie’s Adventures” . Get ready for some very enthusiastic newscasts! They may even rhyme!
I’m determined to raise a water baby and this month was spectacular for that. Now that Kennedy can portray a bit more when things are awesome and / or not so great – it appears she
is a big fan of baths and the pool! We went to the Fairmont Hot springs – and she loved it! However…gone are the days of relaxing for an hour or two in there haha we lasted 25 mins MAX. Im excited because we can start swimming lessons soon! Just as soooooooooon as she can hold her head up…..
….speaking of that I have to work on “Tummy Time”. She is supposed to spend a certain amount of time on her stomach to build up her muscles. Am I the only one that feels SO bad they hate this? We both last about 5 mins…..sometimes I just tell myself that we did enough “Tummy Time” for the day and never look back.
Month 4 also brought the transfer to the crib. I had visions of her crying and wondering where I am and me – accidentally sleeping through it all because IM SO FAR AWAY!! ( About 10 feet down the hall.)
Then I got sad. She is too independent. Typical. Her pediatrician makes fun of me because no matter what the situation- even if its really good- I always find some way of doubting myself. I’m always asking ” Am I doing this right? “. Every damn day I ask that question.
But I know I’m doing something right- cause Kennedy is growing like a weed! She is now 15lbs and growing out of her clothes overnight. A really great tip a mom friend gave me – set the outfits out so that you see them – and you know you gotta wear them. Otherwise they get lost in the abyss that is the back corner of the drawer and before you know it – they never got to wear that super cute onesie.
One last update – remember the flight home from Phoenix I was taking – just Kennedy and me? She was so perfect on the flight down- I thought she would be fine going back. WRONG. Full on meltdown during take off. I sincerely apologize to Barb of Barbs Kitchen Centre who sat beside me. Luckily , Kennedy fell asleep the rest of the flight. But for those 10 minutes- it felt like 10000. Of course Barb was super nice and understanding- thank you from the bottom of my heart for that.
Well that‘s that- my husband Bobby is now taking over on Pat Leave. How amazing is that – dads can now share in this special time?! Get ready for some hilarious stories on CISN I’m sure. He will be great. There’s something special about dads and daughters. It’s gonna be one for the books!